These Days.

Hello, World.

I just wanted to stop in and give you the low down on what’s been going on in my life lately. As I’ve mentioned a few times, my stress level is always reaching a slightly unhealthy level, but what can I do? I have so many things that I love, and so many things to put energy into that I often forget to leave room for just relaxing or chilling or just being. I also recently realized that I take the LSAT June 8th, which means that law school isn’t so far away anymore…scary.

Drinking: COFFEE COFFEE COFFEE. The addiction is back with a vengence. I gave up coffee for the latter half of summer vacation, but once I got back to campus and my academic life started again, coffee just screamed my name. I saw a little quote the other day that said, “A yawn is a silent scream for coffee…” That’s honestly so true. I swear I have to have coffee almost every morning just to keep going. It is a serious struggle. Also, the Pumpkin Chai lattes and Pumpkin Spice lattes are back for fall, and I couldn’t be happier.

Weather: Entirely too warm for fall, but hey, I’ll try to enjoy the last few days of sunshine. I’m ready for sweater and boot weather soon though. I can’t enough of boots once the leaves begin to change color and tumble to the ground. Also, I recently invested in a pair of Tory Burch riding boots, and I’m itching to wear them.

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Reading: Lots of magazines on Sundays, and during the week I’m currently reading Dante’s Inferno, The Grapes of Wrath, and Sense and Sensibility. I wish I had more time to read for fun, but I’m enjoying everything I’m reading right now! I guess having super reading-heavy courses is all part of the English major thing. You can follow what I’m reading by following me on Goodreads!

Thinking About: I have SO much to do today. I have to write a paper, read over 200 pages, and begin outside research for an honors contract I’m doing this semester. Woo hoo, here’s to basically no sleep tonight and extra strong coffee in the morning!

Excited About: I can’t wait for the weekend! Why? Because it’s the weekend. I’m also excited to celebrate two of my friend’s birthdays in the coming week.

Addicted to: Coffee…but you probably already knew that. Whoops. Also, cashews! They are my go-to study snack lately!

What have you been up to?

Truly,
Callie leigh

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Hello, World.

I wanted to share what’s been happening in my life recently. As you know, I started Spring Semester of my sophomore year last week, which was very odd. College is going by quicker than I imagined. It’s funny because when I graduated high school (which flew by), I thought I had finally made it to my future, but I never really expected college to go so fast. Each year of high school felt a little blurrier than the one before, and I feel like college is the same. I’m one of those people that have trouble coping, so if something happens, I spent a few years dealing with it, and forget to live in the right now. But now that I realize college is going by without me paying attention, it’s time I start living every single moment to the fullest. I play it safe too much, and it’s time for me to branch out.
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Drinking: I’m drinking water. I have a slight problem with not drinking enough water. I drink mainly coffee and tea, and I’m pretty sure it’s beginning to run through my veins. So, as part of my new year’s resolutions, I’ve tried to drink more water. Now I wake up, drink a bottle of water, then a cup of coffee, then a few more bottles of water throughout the day. It’s made me feel much better!
IMG_1624 IMG_1640IMG_1663 Weather: It’s sprinkling outside, and I am so excited! Any reason to wear my Hunter rain boots is a great thing. The lack of rain this season is kind of a bummer. I agree that excessive rain can be depressing, but I also think complete lack of rain means that life and nature doesn’t feel as new.
IMG_1627IMG_1657 Reading: I’m currently reading books for my classes. My classes work really well together this semester, and all the reading material overlaps a little, which makes studying so much easier. Well, actually, the only class that doesn’t really fit is geology, but you know, that’s geology…
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Thinking About: The amount of homework I have, the fact my 8am class got cancelled on Monday, and that I’m going to start new, start fresh, and start living. I’m so excited for my future and everything it holds. I’m excited to get through school, hopefully hold a selective position, and go to law school. We’ll see if it’ll happen, but I sure hope it does.
IMG_1643 IMG_1655 Excited About: I’m excited for new adventures. I’m excited for trips to the City this semester, I’m excited to figure out my housing situation next year, and I’m excited to meet new people.
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IMG_1667 What have you been up to?

Truly,
Callie Coker

wearing: white top- Brandy Melville // cardigan- Lacoste // skirt: Lauren Conrad // tights- Vera Bradley // socks: Anthropologie

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Hello, World.
Break is coming to a close, and tomorrow I will get in my car and begin the drive back to school. I love Christmas, but I always end up going back to school with way more than I came with (the downside to gifts if there is one). Packing is always a bit challenging, as I attempt to figure out the best way to pack everything so I don’t have way too many bags in my car. Anyway, I thought I would share what I’ve been up to lately.
Drinking: As part of my new year routine, I’ve tried to drink more water every day. I’m usually really terrible at staying hydrated, preferring lattes or tea to water, but the longer I go without drinking a lot of water each day, the more I feel dehydrated and tired. So, from now on, it’s more water bottles than coffee cups for me.
Weather: It is currently way too warm to be January. I’m not a fan of hot weather, and I certainly despise warmth when it’s supposed to be cold. I’m hoping that there will be some colder weather in the coming weeks. Janterm just wouldn’t feel right if it was warm.
Reading: I’m currently reading Brooklyn Girls by Gemma Burgess. I went to Barnes and Noble after receiving a gift card with the intention of buying a “light read.” I love being an English major, I do, but sometimes I need a break from Hemingway and Faulkner. Some people act like if you buy a book that isn’t a classic, you’re not reading anything good, but I disagree. As someone who wanted to write young adult fiction, I think relatable books are important. So, while Hemingway can teach me all about tortured love, I thought a book that had a review that went something like, “any girl who has no idea what she wants to do or how she’s going to get what she wants should read this,” sounded perfect. It’s funny how sometimes you find a book that is exactly what you need.
Thinking About: I should be packing. I have so much left to do, but I’m procrastinating because I can. I also get bored, and am more likely to forget things if I try to pack in a hurry or all at once without any breaks. I can power through some things, but not packing. Packing is it’s own monster I tackle in it’s own way. I’m also thinking a bit about JanTerm, and what this JanTerm will be like compared to last year. Last year’s class was amazing, and I had a wonderful professor, and I got to write a play, and spend time with some of my close friends every day. That’ll be hard to beat.
Excited About: I’m so glad it’s a new year, and I’m excited to started living a healthier life, and I’m excited to be rid of things that hurt. I’m excited for new beginnings, and seeing my friends. I’m also excited to get back to school because even when I’m miserable there, I’m still my happiest.
Addicted to: I have an obsession with Scandal, but you probably already knew that because of this post.

I guess I better get back to packing because I have to go to my neighbor’s tonight for a bit, then my mom and I are going to watch Season 3 Episode 1 of Scandal (I warned you the addiction was real). I always miss home when I’m gone, but I’m always excited to go when it’s time. Coming and going is a funny thing. I’ll miss my parents, my sister, my dog, and my full-sized bed, but I do love my residence hall, my friends, and even sleeping on a bed where my feet dangle if I sleep a certain way. Enjoy today!

Truly,
Callie leigh

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Hello, World.

What have I been up to? A whole lot of nothing, which is ideal for the first few days following finals. Finals were not my favorite this semester, and I am so thankful they are over. I think I did well, but I am definitely glad the semester from Hell is finally over.

Drinking: Coffee. I used to hate coffee, and would only drink it if I REALLY needed a caffeine boost, and tea wasn’t cutting it, but lately, I drink coffee daily. Maybe it’s the constant state of exhaustion that’s consumed me for the past few months, or maybe it’s that I’ve actually acquired a taste for it (Peets or Dunkin’ Donuts preferably), but I actually enjoy cuddling up with a cup of coffee. I still love tea though, and despite my current love affair with coffee, tea will always hold my heart.

Weather: Baby, it’s cold outside. It’s not quite as cold as last week, but it’s still pretty cold, and I love it. I love any excuse to put together a cute outfit, and layering is my favorite, so the chilly season is my favorite to dress for by far.

Reading: I’m currently reading for pleasure for the first time in roughly three months, and it feels amazing. Being a bibliophile during school is quite difficult because with all my required reading, it’s nearly impossible to find time to read “for fun” (one of the many problems that comes with being an English major). So, what book is first on my Christmas list? Just One Year. A companion to Just One Day, it chronicles the male lead’s point of view of the year following a whirlwind romance. Cheesy stuff, huh? Maybe, but I’m all for cheesy romance at the moment. I need some carefree reading material (especially after reading the Bible nonstop for 3 months), and I need a little romance, a little cheesy romance in my life.

Thinking: I would say nothing because the whole “doing nothing” is my mantra at the moment, part of my post-finals middle finger to the world thing, but I would be lying if I said I was thinking nothing. I’m currently thinking about what Damon said in one of the early seasons of Vampire Diaries. He told Elena, in their first meeting, “You want a love that consumes you. You want passion and adventure, and even a little danger…” Since I’m catching up on all my shows lately, I keep thinking about this quote. I feel like this is what everyone wants, not only this quote, but all the over-the-top romances that are portrayed on TV. We all want to be woo-ed, and we all want to find that person, and we all want to have a little danger (why do girls tend to go for the bad boys? Stereotypes happen for a reason). I don’t want to get all preachy, but I just think it’s funny how people say they’re independent, and how they love being single, and how it’s all better if you can just have fun, but we cling to these TV romances, and think in the back of our minds how it’s so fake it’s real, but secretly hope we’ll get it someday. Besides, who wouldn’t want their very own Damon? I know I sure would (wink wink).

Excited About: I’m SO relieved that the semester is over. I know you’re going to hate hearing this over and over again on here, but I really cannot reiterate enough how much I despised the past semester. While I loved each of my professors, and learned a ton from each of them, this semester was a ton of work, and with so much going on in my personal life, it was really hard to find the motivation and concentration to put my all into my school work like I normally do. I’m also excited to have a few weeks at home to really figure things out for me, and think about what my new years resolutions are going to be for 2014. I have a feeling many of them will involve improving myself, and figuring out who I am, where I’m going, and who is important to me. And now that I’ve spent a majority of this section venting about how relieved I am about school being over for a bit, I must say I’m excited for JanTerm because it means seeing my friends, and having my absolute favorite professor!

Missing: It’s funny how people affect our lives in such a short amount of time. I’ve only known my friends at college for a year and a half, and I feel like I’ve known them forever. As soon as I get home, I’m so thankful to have time with my family, but after a day or two I miss my friends from school desperately. Luckily, when I go back to school it’ll be JanTerm, and that means only one class, and a month-long stress free time with my friends. JanTerm last year was phenomenal. I had so much fun, and there was so much time for activities, which is always nice. I know it’ll be different this year, but I know it’ll be the best.

Addicted to: My stress level decreased immensely in the last few weeks, and I couldn’t be more thankful. I’m cherishing the ability to just be for now, and to just enjoy life. This may not be an addiction, but they say addiction is unhealthy, so maybe it’s good that I’m addicted to not being addicted.

Truly,
Callie Leigh

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Hello, World.

So, in the spirit of finals… I am taking a moment to procrastinate (kind of), and post a quick ‘these days.’ A lot of things have been going on in my life lately, so I thought I would post a little catch up post.

Drinking:  A peppermint latte, trying to stay warm in the insanely cold weather that has consumed my town lately. I love a good holiday drink, and I’m kind of a holiday-flavor junky. It makes me really sad when come January it seems odd to order pumpkin or peppermint or gingerbread.

Weather: It’s currently 48 degrees in town, and I’m freezing. Also, it snowed in Chico last night and I am quite devastated that I missed it. Seriously, I waited for four years of high school for it to snow at least once, and it never did, and then the one time I’m away at school it snows. Weather is a fickle little thing.

Reading: Bible homework. My Biblical Literature final is on Monday, and the study guide is five-pages single-spaced. Can you imagine what I am doing?

Thinking About: All the things I have to do between now and Thursday. Talk about stressful. Also, life happened this week, and so I didn’t get as much done as I originally hoped, but something that is nice is that I finally have some closure in my personal life, which is always a good thing. So, now for all nighters….

Excited About: Going to Livermore today, to my best friends house to help her family decorate their Christmas tree, get cheap Chinese food, watch Christmas movies and study. I love her family, they are so welcoming and hilarious, and its nice to know that I have a family close to school when my family is still three hours away.

Missing: My mama, my dad, my sister, sleep, and the ability to just be. Stress has gotten the best of me this semester, but today is a new day, and despite that its now finals, I know that things are looking up, and that in just a few short days, I will be able to cuddle up next to the fire with my dog, a book, some tea, and my family.

Addicted to: I thought about not including this section for this ‘these days’ because I’m really not addicted to anything at the moment, but then I realized I am kind of addicted to happiness. I feel like happiness is always the goal, and I’m addicted to finding it. So, maybe I’m addicted to adventures, or doing things the hard way because I want to figure out what will make me happy, but in the end, I just want to be happy, and I just want the people I care about to be happy. And I hope everyone knows that even when you’re surrounded by confusion, as long as you have faith, happiness will find you.

Truly,

 Callie Leigh 

These Days.

Hello, World.

Life lately has been utterly insane, but a good insane.

Drinking: a pumpkin spice latte (during the fall and winter months you’ll find me with at least one pumpkin flavored beverage a day). I LOVE pumpkin spice lattes. I love warm drinks that taste like a fall, and I don’t know if I should be proud or ashamed that the people at Starbucks now know my order and name (and it’s correct spelling).

Weather: today is a little warmer than the last few days, but I’ve decided to boycott warm weather, and therefore am still wearing a sweater, jeans, and boots. Fall fashion is the easiest, funnest, and most creative. Whoever said diamonds are a girl’s best friend apparently didn’t know about the invention of layering. During fall and winter, its all about the layers.

Reading:  To be perfectly honest with you, I never stop reading these days. I’ve read more this semester than I ever have read for school. Although, maybe that’s because in college I actually read all the material. But who knows. For my film and book club I am reading Perks of Being a Wallflower, which if you have not read, you should. And if you dislike it you do not have a soul (kidding, but really, it’s gut-wrenchingly good). Fans of the John Green variety will greatly appreciate the novel and its ability to rip you up and help you discover something beautiful all at once.

Thinking About: I tried to make my schedule for Spring semester on Monday, and all the classes I had originally planned either had unusual professors or conflicted with one another. Insert rant about a panic attack here. So, once I gathered myself into something better than a blubbering mess, I decided to really look at my four year plan, and figure out Plan B. Ironically, Plan B wasn’t bad. However, because my high school didn’t offer a lot of AP classes, I still have some requirements to fill, which prevents me from being able to really try out a lot of different English, History, or Politics classes, which is rather unfortunate. Fingers crossed I get the classes I want because if I don’t, well, I really don’t know what I’ll do for Plan C.

Excited About: HALLOWEEN. I really enjoy Halloween, and this year I love my costume. Since its on a Thursday this year, I think I’m going to dress up, hit Chipotle (they give you food for $3 if you wear a costume, I’m so there), watch Harry Potter with my roommate and friends, and do some homework. It may be a relaxing Halloween, but that’s just what I need.

Missing: My family. I always miss them when I’m away from home, and I miss talking to my sister about anything and everything. I’m also missing free time. I really don’t have much time this semester to just sit, watch some TV while eating bon bons with my roommate, or journal, or paint my nails, or go running. I really want to go running more. It helps me think clearer.

Addicted to: Fall. Everything fall related is my current obsession, as you could probably gauge from the fact that everything on my blog lately is either about pumpkin, spice, leaves changing, or fall fashion. I have a probably everyone, but they say the first step is admitting it.

What’s going on in your life lately? Anything special planned this fall?

Truly,

Callie Leigh

These Days.

Hello, World.

For the past two weeks, I’ve worked as a Weekend of Welcome leader at Saint Mary’s College, which is why I haven’t been posting as frequently. My schedule has been insane, but Weekend of Welcome (WOW) ends on Monday, and then I will be back posting almost daily. My hiatus was unintentional, and so I wanted to check in to let y’all know that I’m alive and better than ever!

Drinking: A soy chai latte over ice. I basically live off of this drink these days, and given that I’ve gotten up at 5:30am and worked until 11pm the past few days (with all day training for a week and a half before that) I’ve felt pretty tired lately. The caffeine helps get me through work and the day, and without it I’d probably be a zombie, blubbering mess.

Weather: Being back in the bay area, the weather is much more to my liking. There is always a breeze, but the sun offers a blanket of warmth that reminds me that summer hasn’t quite left us yet. I really need to remember sunscreen though, because my job requires being outdoors a lot, and my pale skin is beginning to get a rosy covering.

Reading: Considering I’m currently working as a weekend of welcome leader at Saint Mary’s, the only things I’ve read recently are college forms, schedules, and to-do lists. My days are blurring together, and I’ve tried to read when I get the chance, but my hours are pretty long, and at the end of the day the only thing that I can really think about is bedtime.

Thinking About: The beginning of classes, the end of weekend of welcome, and all the things that lie between. Being a weekend of welcome leader is a truly unparalleled experience. I have met so many amazing, sweet people, and I feel more involved in Saint Mary’s than ever. While I’m really excited for classes to start, I’m a little nervous about the end of WOW because I don’t want to stop seeing all my new friends everyday. I know that classes bring with them stress, homework, and conflicting schedules, and I just hope that I still get to hangout with all the people I’ve met. A lot of change has occurred in my life recently, but I am so content and happy and carefree that I just want to hold onto this feeling and never let it go. I’m utterly content with the people I have in my life right now, and the person I am in this moment, and I hope that the stress of classes and, well, reality, doesn’t change how I’m feeling.

Excited About: Classes, meeting even more first year students, being able to sleep in, and being able to do whatever I want whenever I want!

Missing: I’m content with everything I have and what I don’t have. Let me just say, if I don’t have it anymore, it wasn’t meant to be had.

Addicted to: I’m currently addicted to Saint Mary’s and the beautiful souls found on this campus. Being a WOW leader, I’ve really begun to understand what SMC is all about, and the people that compose its community, and I am addicted to the energy and happiness that permeates this college.

How’s life for you?

Truly,

Callie Coker

These Days.

Hello, World.

Things have been a little intense lately, and a little hectic, but here’s a glimpse into my life lately.

Drinking: Water. I think I’ve been slacking on drinking enough water recently. I am almost always drinking tea, which I justify as being basically water, but I really do need to drink more plain water. I’ve decided I’m going to workout every morning from now until I go back to school, and then, once at school, I want to work out a schedule to continue getting fit. But, if I workout everyday I need to be more hydrated.

Weather: The weather is way too hot for my taste. I’ve been feeling faint a lot more frequently (I’m hypoglycemic), and I think the main reason is it’s been so hot, plus I’m not drinking enough water. Maybe I’ll have to go swimming after I finish writing this post…

Reading: After reading Just One Day, I really wanted to read Twelfth Night by William Shakespeare because it affects the novel so much. I also know that She’s The Man is based on this play also, so I figured it would be a good Shakespeare to read. I want to read all of his plays before I die (maybe I should add that to my Bucket List), and so I’ve been slowly making my way through all the plays in the last few years.

Thinking About: With school coming up in a few weeks, I’m thinking about all the things that school entails. For the first few weeks that I’m at school, I’m going to be working as a welcome leader for incoming freshman, and then classes will begin come September. I’ve been thinking about school a lot because I’m trying to start packing my stuff, figuring out what I want to take with me and what I will have my parents ship to me later. I’m really looking forward to going back to school and seeing my friends, and having things to do all the time. I’ve been thinking about playing volleyball this year, but I’m still not 100% sure that I want to. I guess only time will tell.

Excited About: My birthday is on Thursday, and I’m getting more excited for it everyday! I’m planning to do sushi and a Romantic Comedy movie night with two of my friends, then a family dinner, then a lunch at my favorite restaurant with some of my other friends. I feel like this summer has been a little lame just because a lot of things have been going on, and I haven’t done as many things as I originally wanted to, so I’m excited to catch up with my friends and celebrate my birthday. I’m also excited to return to my friends at Saint Mary’s because it’s been far too long since I’ve seen them (especially my roommate and quasi-twin, Holly). Oh, and I’m excited for The Bachelorette finale, obviously.

Missing: The ability to eat ice cream. Being allergic to every good food is not really my thing. Besides the fact that I’ve lost a lot a weight, and that there are non-dairy ice creams, I miss just plain old dairy ice cream. Although, I’m going to be cooking more for myself this year, so I picked up some Gluten Free & Dairy Free cookbooks today. I’m really excited to try some of the recipes, and figure out which I like, and which I don’t.

Addicted to: Lately I’ve had so much on my mind, and I’m trying to figure out how I feel about some things, what I want my life to look like in the next few months, and who I want to be, so I’ve been journaling like crazy. I’ve also been re-reading old journal entries to try to understand why I’m feeling the way I’m feeling right now. It’s interesting how things change over time, and I like looking back, watching my life unfold, because it usually helps me figure out how I’ve gotten to now, and why things are the way they are. So, here’s to journaling it out!

How’s life for you lately?

Truly,
Callie Leigh

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Hello, World.

Things have been crazy, hectic, and swell lately.

Drinking: Iced Zen Tea from Starbucks. I came home from the cabin two days earlier than planned due to some family stuff, and I feel like I’m melting in the heat. It’s roughly 97 degrees on average, and that’s about 15 degrees hotter than I like the air around me. Still, there’s nothing like iced tea on scorching days.

Weather: Too hot, really. I just expanded on this in ‘Drinking,’ but I can definitely bad mouth the heat some more. It’s too damn hot. Take me back to the Bay Area please; I sure do miss the lovely breeze and the days that rarely exceed 80 degrees.

Writing: mainly in my journal about my life, my aspirations, and my reflections on things that have happened lately. Something about journaling is immensely soothing to me. I feel like I can just pour my soul into a journal and there’s no judgment or hard feelings. I especially love journaling when I’m really mad about something because I can just vent for pages and pages and never actually have to hurt someone’s feelings.

Reading: I took a hiatus from East of Eden, and am currently finishing up The Sun Also Rises by the lovely Hemingway. The man is sparse, but in the best way. I love the quickness with which the story unfolds, and the witty banter between characters. I read a short story by Hemingway in my Lit. Analysis class last semester, and enjoyed it, but I much prefer the novel to short stories, so I’m glad to be reading a lengthier piece by him. Also, I think I may be in love with the 1920s.

Thinking about: Over the past two weeks, my dad has been in the ER twice, and has had an MRI of his brain, met with a cardiologist, and is scheduled for a stress test. So, to say that my father’s health is constantly on my mind would be obvious, but overwhelmingly true. None of the doctors are sure why he’s been feeling crummy lately, but one of the doctors we’ve worked with is trying really hard to figure out something. Not knowing anything is kind of scary. If the reason for sickness is nothing and he just has a cold or some kind of nasty virus, then I’d like to know exactly that. But if it’s something more serious, then I’d definitely like to know that too.

Missing: Gilmore Girls being a show that is on weekly. I’m a gigantic fan of the show, and I’ve seen every episode at least four times, but sometimes I wish I could see new episodes to find out how Rory’s journalism career is going, if Luke and Lorelei made amends, if Rory came to her senses and married Logan (or Jess), if Paris is still freaked out by sick people, if any more maids sugared the grapefruits, or if anyone found more walnuts in the salad. But alas, I guess if I want to see any more Gilmore Girls I’ll have to write it myself (wink wink).

Addicted to: I’ve been finishing up my Freshman Year scrapbook, and I’m so sad I’m almost done. I’ve come to really love scrapbooking, but I still have my gift book for a friend, which is half scrapbooking I suppose, so maybe I’m not done with the craft for the summer. Still, though, maybe I’ll have to make a scrapbook for each year of college! That’s a nice thought, but we’ll see how it goes. Anyway, I’m relishing the feeling that I’m becoming more creative because I’ve never considered myself a super creative person. But it’s been a goal of mine for a while to become more creative and crafty, so I’m on my way!

How is life going for you lately?

Truly,

Callie leigh

These Days.

Hello, World.

How have you been doing lately? I’ve been well, but just for kicks here’s an idea of what I’ve been up to:

 Drinking: Apricot Vanilla Crème white tea. Trust me, it’s just as delicious as it sounds. I’m feeling extremely lazy today, and tea is even more delicious when I’m curled up on the couch with a book or watching reruns of Vampire Diaries or Gilmore Girls.

Weather: overcast and slightly chilly. I’m happy it’s not 110 degrees, but I’m a little confused by the clouds today. However, the unexpected chill is a nice change from the stale heat that usually envelops my town. Being home for the summer is an adjustment simply because the weather here is so much different than the Bay Area. 

Writing: In my journal all the thoughts, actions, and events of the past few days. My sister’s best friend from high school drowned in her family’s pool on father’s day, and it’s been really hard on my family. She was only 25, and for a majority of my life she was like a second big sister, so I’ve been journaling a lot about the effects of her death on my life and world view. I guess if it’s taught me anything it is that life is far to short to be boring, so we better start living each day as though it’s our last (I do believe James Dean said something to this effect once upon a time).

Thinking About: All the things I want to do in life, Mitchell, and the fact that I have no desire to get out of my pajamas and deal with the world today, but alas, I have a Rib BBQ to attend with family. I would be considering bailing, but it’s a fundraiser for sports in schools, so I figure I should show my support.

Excited About: life, going to the cabin for the 4th of July, finishing East of Eden. I’ve been trying to get it through it for a while, taking a break to read the new Sarah Dessen. It’s very very slow moving so I get distracted quite easily while reading it, but the story line is interesting!

Missing: Megan (my sister’s friend), my close friends from my childhood, school, the cabin, a lot of things really. Death seems to leave a bitter taste in my mouth, and whenever someone close to my family passes I always feel like I need to make sure I’m really living, and that the people important to me know just how much they mean. One thing with Megan is that she never had a dull moment, and she was extremely giving, and I hope that I can emulate that through the rest of my days.

Addicted to: Journaling, and making the “adventures” journal for Mitchell. Seriously, I keep getting so many ideas that I just keep journaling in it, and I like that it’s part collage, part extended love letter. I love journaling because it allows me to get all my thoughts out, lets me just pour my soul into a million blank pages, and I know that I’m not going to be judged, forgotten, or annoying. Journals can seriously be the best of friends, which is a little sad considering they’re mute.

What have you been up to? Have a great Sunday, everyone!

Truly,

Callie